Monthly Archives: June 2014
As my blog continues to grow and attract a bigger audience, I’ve been a little more aware of my writing style and lack of editing skills. I know…..I know…I know….sigh….I just don’t feel like it. Lol.
But………I felt the need to talk about the freedom of writing. And what I mean by this is that I have never been much of an editor. Lol. Anyone who writes knows exactly what I’m talking about. I’ve always luxuriated in the ability to use punctuation and grammar as I see fit. It’s always been difficult for me to evoke a certain tone/voice while also obeying the rules of writing. Call it a weakness…..call it laziness…..call it freedom….call it shorthand.
Well….today’s post is my DISCLAIMER! Lol. I’ve always written as a way for me to reflect on my thoughts and furthermore……organize them so that they are a bit more manageable. I want my readers to know that I simply write with freedom. I rarely pay close attention to the rules of writing. I put my thoughts out there and let them be what they are…..MY thoughts.
Writing with freedom and lack of judgement is liberating. I will continue to give myself permission to make mistakes and bend the rules a bit. I hope my followers will understand. If not…..you’ll be okay…..I promise. :0)
It’s interesting because as writers……..we often feel this need to correct a person when there may be a mistacke in their writing…….. Lol. I know…..I know…ugh…I spelt ‘mistake’ incorrectly…along with the world spelt (spelled). Does this really bother you? Has this mistake effected your life in some unimaginable way? Lol. If so……I’m sorry…but it is what it is….my truth. I like to call this type of writing……..’writing with freedom’. The freedom to put your thoughts out there anyway you see fit…….and the knowing that your followers are still able to receive the message.
Know this…….editing comes in time. Quite frankly, I do it when I feel like it. And if…one day…I become some popular writer who can afford an editor…EDITING will happen more often. Lol. In the interim….I invite you to continue reading through my errors and receiving my truth. If the WordPress spellcheck doesn’t catch the error…oh well!…….and most of the time I ignore the suggestions….lol……. “I’s writes with freedom!”
I give all of you the freedom to write….share your thoughts first…………knowing that you are fully capable of editing whenever the hell you feel like it.
I want to thank each and every one of you for not calling me out…on my lack of editing…….lol. It truly is just laziness. The freedom to just write/share my thoughts……..is myTRUTHmyCLARITY……and I love it. ;0)
Full Circle….My TRUTHs
As I sit here and ponder the past two years of my life it literally brings tears to my eyes. I often wonder….how the hell did I get through this experience? They say hind sight is 20/20. Knowing what I know now……would I had still walked down this path?
As I worked out in the gym today, I was on a cycling machine ….you know the one where you’re pedaling away with your arms. Lol. Well…..the last time I was on this machine was at the Beach Rotana Hotel awaiting my placement for the next two years of my life. I remember being wide-eyed and optimistic about what was to come my way. Boy oh boy….I had no clue what opportunities and challenges were waiting for me.
Two years later, here I am at a hotel awaiting my departure back to the good ole USA. WOW! So many life lessons learned throughout this journey. What’s interesting is that this exit process has been quite stressful. Unfortunately, these recent obstacles have put a damper on my full experience which is why I felt it necessary to write a post celebrating this full circle moment….my TRUTHs.
As my blog suggests, I am a simple guy working through my complex thoughts and now is an important time to celebrate the many lessons learned throughout this journey. I am simply seeking clarity through my following truths….or lessons learned. I hope my truths encourage others to take a leap of faith into the unknown….so that you may walk confidently towards your dreams.
– Life is not about the destination. Embrace the journey because it is filled with an abundance of moments that make life worth living. Furthermore, being present will afford you the opportunity to live on purpose and truly appreciate each and every day as if it were your last.
– As a result of living in a foreign country, I have experienced a new kind of loneliness. The people who I love the most in the world have been thousands of miles away. As a result, I’ve had to surrender to the loneliness and really understand what was going on internally. I have since learned that a person truly begins to feel lonely when they no longer enjoy the company of themselves. Happiness starts from within. The moment you begin searching for happiness outside of yourself…..is the moment you have lost touch with your source. Spending time with yourself….strengthens your relationship with your source. Be still and connect with source. Know that your loved ones may be far away…but the love is still there….regardless.
– Infinite patience, flexibility and tolerance are all qualities that many say they have. But to actually walk the talk is a true test. Any person who is willing to live outside of their comfort zone and see the experience through….is walking the talk.
– I am not my negative thoughts. I am the awareness that recognizes these thoughts when they arise. I am more in tune with my soul and I know when my ego tries to take over. Let life lead the dance…….sit back and trust that your source has your best interest at heart….even when things don’t seem to make much sense.
– I am a spiritual being having a human experience. While I’m on this earth, I have the responsibility to serve on purpose and to evolve. These two functions afford one peace, love and happiness…….. which in turn ensures you Live on Purpose!
– Discover your passion and serve in a way that allows you to do what you love. It gives your life meaning even in the hardest of times.
– Don’t take life so seriously….LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH!
– Find ways to actively connect with your source….be it yoga, exercise, meditation, spiritual books, ECT. Seek guidance on a daily basis and stay CONNECTED.
– Rest on inspiration! When a person is inspired…they are in SPIRIT. WHICH MEANS….an idea or purpose has found you. Run with it!
– WALK your TALK. Practice what you preach! Lead by example folks and live your legacy out loud!
I must acknowledge my biggest TRUTHs:
I AM a better man than I was before I came over to this middle eastern country. I have grown spiritually, physically, mentally, professionally, and emotionally.
Furthermore, I have served on purpose. I haven’t seen the direct result of my work…but that’s okay because I’ve invested in the process. I rest easy knowing even in some small…minute way….I have left my footprints in the sand dunes of this desert country.
When I am in the taxi headed to the airport …….I will whisper two words out into the hot and humid air…….”thank you!”
An experience….a journey…never forgotten. :0)
This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY! :0)
(Written by….my EGO)
As I await my departure back to the USA, I am currently residing in a five-star hotel that my company is paying for. Upon checking in, I was told my reservation was for 14 nights. Now, any other time I’d be thrilled to luxuriate in hotel amenities at the expense of someone else. But as I have said before, I’ve been living and teaching is this foreign country for two years…….I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!
I’m sure you’re wondering what the hold up may be? Your guess is as good as mine. I honestly do not know what is taking so long to cancel my visa and for them to pay me my money. The kids have been out of school for about two weeks and Ramadan is approaching in one day.
I feel like I’m being held here against my will. I made a request to resign in May and it was denied. Denied? I know……right?! Why the early resignation? Well, to be honest I’ve accomplished all of my goals. I’ve always heard horror stories about the exit process, so I wanted to leave on my terms. Needless to say, that didn’t happen.
So here I am…….restless……sitting in a hotel for an indefinite amount of time. I feel so ungrateful writing that last sentence (soul speaking) but my negative emotions are real (ego speaking). I attribute my restlessness to the fact that I start my new job August 1. I also have my new apartment waiting to be moved into by ME. Lastly, I need time with family and friends. I need time to receive the love (in close proximity) before I’m required to step back into the routines of life.
However, it looks like that isn’t going to happen. So here I am attempting to rid myself of this restlessness which is causing me great anxiety. A good friend of mine suggested I stop fighting it. Lol. Damn….he is so right. I haven’t been in control since the moment I arrived here in the Middle East. Hmmmm….?? I guess I’m being challenged ONCE AGAIN to walk my talk.
Wayne Dyer often says, “If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”
(Written by…….my SOUL)
This is where I must exercise HUMILITY.
Okay….yes I’ve been living in this foreign space for two years and upon my arrival back to the USA …I anticipate some challenges with adjusting into western ways. Therefore, time is needed for me to be still, center myself and slowly unravel from this experience. Because……once I’m home….it’s business as usual.
This journey in the Middle East has been an emotional one. The highs have been really high….and the lows have been pretty low. But there’s been a balance which has afforded me an experience of a lifetime. As anxious as I am to go home, there are elements of this experience I will genuinely miss. Therefore, I really need to take the time to immerse myself in these final moments as much as I can.
When’s the next time you will have 14 nights paid for at a five-star hotel by someone else? Exactly! If you don’t shut your ungrateful behind up (EGO) and listen to the whispers. Your SOURCE is giving you the time you need to ensure you’re truly ready to head back into the hustle and bustle of NYC. You’ve lived a pretty simple and quiet life these past two years. Here’s the challenge: How can you bring this peace with you into the next chapter of your life?
Lastly, you’ve managed to make the most out of the past two years. You took an undesirable situation and flipped it! Don’t let these final moments overshadow an experience that has made you an even better man. If anything…..let these final moments be a time of reflection and gratitude. Now…..it’s time to flip your negative thoughts!
Damn it EGO! Get over yourself. Look at what we’ve accomplished….I mean really make an observation. We did it! We completed our commitment and accomplished all that we set out to do. There’s so much to celebrate!
I give you (EGO) permission to chill out dude. Like seriously…..relax and just be in these final moments.
I give you (EGO) permission to stop fighting.
Infinite patience produces immediate results. ;8)
Consider these crazy thoughts organized! Lol.
This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY
“This intelligence we think is conspiring against us, we have to understand, works with us but you have to have infinite patience and trust.
The reason it says infinite patience produces immediate results is because the immediate result of your infinite patience is peace. You retreat in peace and you let the universe handle the details.” – Wayne Dyer
What does this word truly mean? Well, I’m living it because I have NO choice. Although at times I feel uncomfortable beyond measure, I recognize that it’s just me EGO attempting to take control of the situation.
The situation? Well, I’m currently living and teaching overseas in the Middle East and my two-year contract is coming to a close. The school year is over, my accommodation has been emptied, and I’m waiting around in a hotel for my money! Lol.
It’s interesting because I have been eagerly waiting for this moment for about the last six months. However, these final days, and weeks have felt longer than the past six months. I’m currently going through the EXIT process. This consists of my company canceling my visa and paying a brotha the money he’s worked for.
Sounds easy enough right? Well, anybody who has lived in the middle eastern part of the world already knows how complex the simplest tasks are made out to be. I’d go into detail but that would mean I’d have to relive the last grueling four weeks of my life and my current emotional state is fragile. Lol.
Which brings me back to surrendering. So I’ve done all that I need to do and at this point I’m just waiting…..and waiting…and more waiting….and waiting. It has literally been torture on every level because I’m so ready to go home. I have a job waiting for me, a new apartment that needs to be moved into, and family/friends I need to receive love from. I need a hug so bad. I need my normal back. I need an emotional vacation. I need my mamas cooking. I need a good shoulder to cry on. Lol.
However…….I know……that……I……need…to…surrender! Otherwise, I’ll go crazy out here in this hot desert. ;0)
It’s funny because I’ll catch myself sitting around the hotel room in deep thought. I’m usually thinking about relocating back to New York City……..thinking about all the stuff I need to do and then suddenly I’ll get EXTREMELY anxious, sad, angry, or irritated. Ugh….it’s the worst. But I’m smart enough to know what’s happening inside my head. Emotions are simply thoughts in motion. Therefore, I’m trying to change the way I look at things….so that the things I look at change (Wayne Dyer). BUT that damn EGO of mine is always trying to take control. Lol.
I’ve had to accept that I have no control over this exit process. On top of that, RAMADAN will take effect on June 28. Folks who are living in this part of the world already know what that means! You got it….EVERYTHING slows down or is shut down. So with Ramadan fast approaching…..I truly have no choice but to surrender and maybe even participate in the fast. I think it’ll do me some good. :0)
This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY! Consider these thoughts organized…. :8)
Eight ways to tap into the power of intention and feel great every day:
1) Make meditation a regular practice in your life. You need to take time to get quiet, to go within, and from this silence make conscious contact with the source of intention. You’re already connected to everything that you perceive as missing from your life; go with a realign.
2) Become conscious of the foods you eat. Foods high in alkalinity such as fruits, vegetables, nuts, soy, nonyeast breads and virgin olive oil are high-energy foods and will strengthen you, while highly acidic foods such as flour-based cereals, meats, dairy and sugars lower energy and will weaken you.
3) Retreat from low-energy substance. Alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine, sugar and virtually all artificial drugs, legal or otherwise, lower your body’s energy level and weaken you.
4) Become aware of the energy level of the music you listen to. Some rap music—filled with profanity and messages about killing, for example—is an energy drain, while music that has a more soothing impact on the soul has been proven to be beneficial.
5) Become aware of the energy levels of your home environment. Make your home a nurturing, cheerful and peaceful environment.
6) Reduce your exposure to low-energy commercial television. Children see 12,000 simulated murders on TV before their 14th birthday! Television news puts a heavy emphasis on the bad and the ugly, leaving out the good.
7) Enhance your energy field with photographs. Every photograph contains energy. Carry and display photos taken in moments of happiness, love and receptivity.
8) Become conscious of the energy levels of your acquaintances, friends and extended family. Choose to be in close proximity to those who are empowering, who see the greatness in you, who feel connected to spirit.
Written by my favorite spiritual teacher: Dr. Wayne Dyer
It’s still blows my mind anytime I say, “I’ve been living overseas for two years!” I can’t believe I’m actually living a small thought that danced around in my head back in February 2012. It’s now June 2014 and here I am. As you think, so shall you be.
I have accomplished so much upon my arrival here in Abu Dhabi. However, when ever I’m asked about my greatest accomplishment the first thing that comes to mind is completing the two year commitment. With just two week remaining, I stand tall with my head held high…..embracing my newfound confidence. I can do whatever I put my mind to and this I now know to be my TRUTH and my CLARITY.
Folks, I’m going to be honest with you. Living overseas ain’t all peaches and creme, the HIGHS can be really HIGH and the LOWS can be really LOW. Once the honey moon period passes and it hits you that this foreign space is now your home…..boy oh boy……the stages of culture shock are REAL my followers!
I’m so thankful for my job. The time spent with my students was one of the few moments I felt at home. As an educator, I am fortunate enough to have a platform (classroom) to do what I love which is inspiring youth to achieve their BIG dreams. Furthermore, providing them with the resources needed to experience SUCCESS so that they now know what it LOOKS like, FEELS like, and SOUNDS like. Once a child experiences success…I mean truly lives it in my classroom……..the world of infinite possibilities is in their hands….thereby motivating them to shoot for the stars!
My biggest challenge always began the moment I’d leave my job because I was stepping back into a strict Muslim culture. Initially, I was curious and immersed myself into the Arabic ways but after a year….I just got tired. Lol. Year two was much more challenging than year one. By year two things became clearer (as far as the cultural/religious ways) and they challenged my western ways beyond measure. I thought about going home at least once a day. Not because of any type of negative experience, I just missed my home…I missed my normalcy. I missed the luxury of blending in. My company gives us teachers many opportunities to resign but I had to finish what I started. I was AWARE of the idea that every obstacle posed an opportunity for emotional, physical and spiritual growth. Furthermore, this experience was exactly what I asked for. So often times, I simply invited my EGO to take it’s weak ass out of my head……..I (SPIRIT) was prepared to surrender to the experience and see this journey all the way to the end.
I still don’t know how I’ve managed to get through these past to years which is why I must attribute my greatest accomplishment to my SOURCE. I have discovered a new level of strength, patience, flexibility, tolerance, humility, gratitude, love and peace. I am a new man! More importantly, I have left my footprint within the sand dunes of the Middle East. Although I may never see the results of my hard work while serving here in Abu Dhabi, it is the JOURNEY that has been filled with life changing experiences and opportunities to SERVE…..and for that I am thankful. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY….. Encouraging all of you to step outside of your comfort zone into the direction of the unknown…… Live on purpose!
Let me tell you something! You are not in charge of this body. You have never had our best interest at heart and your selfish ways concern me.
Did you really think I wouldn’t notice? Damn right! I found the receipts and brought back all the crap you thought would afford you happiness. You’ve got it all wrong EGO! When will you learn…….we are not this body, we are not what people think of us, we are not the things we accumulate and we are not separate from our SOURCE.
UGH….I really wish you’d stop trying to take control of the steering wheel. You ain’t got no license! Well….maybe a license to kill because following your lead is surely a death sentence.
I know you’re pissed that I decided against drinking that glass of wine the other night but you and I both know that your intentions were all wrong. Hell….it wasn’t even my problem…it was yours! Heck…I was all good. You are the one that always feels this need to take control and when things don’t go your way you get all bent out of shape.
I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again….if we are going to live together you need to stay in your lane. Your lane? Uh..yeah! You’re on early retirement. I’m wide awake and aware of your sneaky ways.
Aren’t you tired? You’ve been working full time….and overtime hours the moment I came into this world. So do us both a favor and be STILL. I send nothing but love your way and assure you our SOURCE and I will be just fine. If I must address this issue again…..I’ll MEDITATE you back into STILLNESS. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY….. :0)
The AWARENESS within (my SOUL)