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Be Kind to Yourself 

Side eye… hand on the hip…. mouth wide open…..twist of the neck….and lots of attitude! ……….wait for it…. speak MAMA RU!

Isn’t funny how our emotions work? One minute the world feels like it’s going to end and the next minute you feel compelled to serve Beyoncé realness. 


As I bring the microphone to my lips and open up my 👄, I take in a mouthful…. OF AIR! Y’all nasty. Lol. And allow my vocal chords to do the rest. Oh… ya’ll thought I was going to actually starting singing? You’ve got the wrong blog!

I’ve revealed more than I ususally do these past few posts and I must say it’s been liberating. The overwhelming support has reminded me to ensure I’m also being kind, loving and supportive to myself. So interesting how we forget to do such a simple thing. 

I’ve recently started going to a counselor. Yes! I know….it’s still hard for me to admit it but hell I’m going to a damn counselor….and I’m unapologetic. And even better it’s covered by my insiurance. Lol. Anyway…….usually at the end of every session I try to walk away with some mantra that I can put into practice throughout the week. And this week…. you guessed right.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF ANTHONY. 


I don’t know where this journey shall take me. I surrender chile! I mean literally, I have handed over the car keys and fastened my humble ass in the passenger seat of life. SOURCE take the wheel. My GPS is off… hell my cellphone is off. I clasp my hands together, throw my head out of the car window and look up to the sky. I simply close my eyes and say thank you. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY and so it is friends. 

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Fishbowl 


Hey fellow writers! I always wonder how many people actually read these posts? Then I wonder why I do I actually care? I mean my purpose for writing is for me to reflect on my truth my clarity. If my journey inspires others …. great! If not… eh… it is what it is. No shade…. wink. 

Sorry folks, today’s a funky kind of day. Heck I’m just tired and it’s myTRUTHmyCLARITY. Lol. I’ve found myself trying to keep busy in order to avoid the present matters at hand. Sigh…. I’m tired just thinking about it. I keep hearing ‘one day at a time’ but these days are wearing me out! Lol. It’s interesting because I feel this need to ‘keep swimming’ 🏊 but lately I’m feeling more compelled to simply float. I’m doing all this swimming and haven’t a clue which direction I should even be headed in. Round and round I go wondering why I’m chasing my tail. The other day it dawned on me to actually stop swimming and come up for some damn air. Like literally take my head up out of the water! Well damn! Didn’t realize I was actually swimming/exhibiting in a fishbowl of emotions which speaks to why I’ve been suffocating. 

I’m tired friends….and just feel this need to float calmly in the ripples of my emotions. As I lay on my back and look up out of the fishbowl I wonder what’s out there? How do I get myself out of this bowl of emotions. My desire to change goes beyond buying a filter and changing the water. I want more than this bowl…I want to be able to leap out of this bowl and float through the winds of possibility. I want to feel free of all the pain and sorrow. I lay here floating….. feeling to tired to swim. It’s so hard to just be still but know I must if ever I am to restore my fire 🔥 to persevere. I float freely……just being with self and having faith that one day I’ll be restored enough to take the leap of LIFE out of the bowl and into the unknown. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. And so it is….I FLOAT. :0)

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Good Intention

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Gentle Sigh. One’s intention goes a long way be it good or bad and it’s important we walk this truth on a daily basis. Every decision you make is deeply rooted with intention and recognizing this ensures you stay present throughout the process and removed from the result. A person having good intentions can be found awaiting the express train with a clear desire to pass on by the bullshit ideas that the EGO holds to be its truth.

As a person with good intention, I recognize that I am not my title. I am not what I acquire. I am not this body. I am not separate from God. I am not invested in any materials deemed of value by man. I walk ‘myTRUTHmyCLARITY’ embracing unforeseen challenges and defying all odds. I remain present and saturate my egotistical thoughts with the following positive affirmations:

  • I move confidently into the direction of the unknown having nothing but good intentions.
  • My success is measured by the number of people I inspire.
  • My intention is reflected in my personal growth.
  • My success is measured by the distance I am willing to travel in order to serve others.

One thing is key! Successful people having good intention live on purpose. They feed off of life’s opportunities in order to serve and grow. Your purpose is married to your passion and success is simply the honeymoon. Now walk down that aisle with good intention! This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY!

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NEW Year FRESH Start!

As I move into 2015, I leave behind old negative thoughts and welcome positive healthy thoughts.

I part ways with habitual behaviors that disconnect me from my source and walk confidently into the direction of my dreams.

I invite full potential into my present reality forcing stagnant energy out of my life.

As I work to embrace uncomfortable experiences, I recognize that this is the place where LIVING ON PURPOSE resides.

The following truths about EGO will afford me a life of evolution and service thereby enveloping me in peace, love and happiness:
-You are NOT this body
-Your are NOT the THINGS you acquire
-You are NOT your titles
-You are NOT separate from GOD
-You ARE a spiritual being having a human experience

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY :0)

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DON’T worry BE happy ;o)

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Here are some specific suggestions for eliminating worry from your life:

1. Begin to view all of your present moments as times to live, rather than to obsess about the future.

2. Recognize the preposterousness of worry. Ask yourself over and over, “Is there anything that will change as a result of my worrying about it?”

3. Give yourself shorter and shorter periods of “worry time.” Designate 10 minutes in the morning to worry—and when that time period is up, refuse to worry until your afternoon worry segment.

4. Make a worry list of everything you worried about yesterday or last year, and then see if your worrying did anything to affect the outcome.

5. Keep in mind the most useful advice I can give you for eliminating worry from your life;

“It makes no sense to worry about the things you have no control over, because if you have no control over them, it makes no sense to worry about them. And also, it makes no sense to worry about the things you do have control over, because if you have control over them, it makes no sense to worry about them. And there goes everything that it is possible to worry about. Either you have control or you don’t, and worry is just a waste of your precious, present moments.”

Inspired and written by: Wayne Dyer

This mans ideas have ALWAYS kept me aligned with myTRUTHmyCLARITY. May he continue to inspire all of us to live our lives on purpose.

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Home Sweet Home….and so it is!

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I’m in disbelief! Because home is five hours away and it feels so damn good. I completed my two year contract and man oh man……I prevailed. I don’t need to say much because my actions alone speak loudly. If you didn’t catch on….let me spell it out for you,

“Step outside of your comfort zone and let life lead the way. Furthermore, walk confidently into the direction of the unknown and serve. A person who serves is a person who is truly living life on purpose.”

I have completed my two year contract while living and teaching in a foreign country. Hell a Muslim country….located in the Middle East…..and I’m here to let you all know that I have received an abundance of blessings that have made me even better than I was upon my arrival on August 10, 2012.

The three BIGGEST EYE OPENERS I will take with me back to New York City are:

1. Serve….serve….serve! Are you seeking your purpose in life? Well? Serve…serve…serve… And it shall find you.

2. A person who is lonely no longer enjoys the company of him or herself. Get to know you……because if you don’t love yourself….then how in the hell you gonna love anybody else. And A….LONE….NESS….affords you the time needed to connect with your SOURCE. So get quiet and get alone.

3. Step outside of your comfort zone and be willing to grow. Growth affords you the opportunity to move with life. And life is always moving/changing…..be fluid…..and move with your purpose. The moment you step outside of your comfort zone is the moment you are truly LIVING on PURPOSE.

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY.

And so the next chapter begins……NYC HERE I COME! Home sweet home….and so it is!

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Ten LIFE Tips…. :0)

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Here are ten LIFE tips inspired by quotes from Dr. Wayne Dyer: 
1. Change your perspective
“Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.”
2. Pursue your dreams
“Anything you really want, you can attain, if you really go after it.”
3. Hardships reveal who you are
“Circumstances do not make a man, they reveal him.”
4. A calm mind is powerful
“A mind at peace, a mind centered and not focused on harming others, is stronger than any physical force in the universe. “
5. Do not judge
“When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.”
6. Make a decision to move forward
“You are not stuck where you are unless you decide to be.”
7. Control how you react to events
“How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours.”
8. Do what you love
“Doing what you love is the cornerstone of having abundance in your life.”
9. Go the extra mile
“It’s never crowded along the extra mile.”
10. Be open to miracles
“Miracles come in moments. Be ready and willing.”

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY!

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Full Circle…..My TRUTHS

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Full Circle….My TRUTHs

As I sit here and ponder the past two years of my life it literally brings tears to my eyes. I often wonder….how the hell did I get through this experience? They say hind sight is 20/20. Knowing what I know now……would I had still walked down this path?

As I worked out in the gym today, I was on a cycling machine ….you know the one where you’re pedaling away with your arms. Lol. Well…..the last time I was on this machine was at the Beach Rotana Hotel awaiting my placement for the next two years of my life. I remember being wide-eyed and optimistic about what was to come my way. Boy oh boy….I had no clue what opportunities and challenges were waiting for me.

Two years later, here I am at a hotel awaiting my departure back to the good ole USA. WOW! So many life lessons learned throughout this journey. What’s interesting is that this exit process has been quite stressful. Unfortunately, these recent obstacles have put a damper on my full experience which is why I felt it necessary to write a post celebrating this full circle moment….my TRUTHs.

As my blog suggests, I am a simple guy working through my complex thoughts and now is an important time to celebrate the many lessons learned throughout this journey. I am simply seeking clarity through my following truths….or lessons learned. I hope my truths encourage others to take a leap of faith into the unknown….so that you may walk confidently towards your dreams.

Truth #1
– Life is not about the destination. Embrace the journey because it is filled with an abundance of moments that make life worth living. Furthermore, being present will afford you the opportunity to live on purpose and truly appreciate each and every day as if it were your last.

Truth #2
– As a result of living in a foreign country, I have experienced a new kind of loneliness. The people who I love the most in the world have been thousands of miles away. As a result, I’ve had to surrender to the loneliness and really understand what was going on internally. I have since learned that a person truly begins to feel lonely when they no longer enjoy the company of themselves. Happiness starts from within. The moment you begin searching for happiness outside of yourself…..is the moment you have lost touch with your source. Spending time with yourself….strengthens your relationship with your source. Be still and connect with source. Know that your loved ones may be far away…but the love is still there….regardless.

Truth #3
– Infinite patience, flexibility and tolerance are all qualities that many say they have. But to actually walk the talk is a true test. Any person who is willing to live outside of their comfort zone and see the experience through….is walking the talk.

Truth #4
– I am not my negative thoughts. I am the awareness that recognizes these thoughts when they arise. I am more in tune with my soul and I know when my ego tries to take over. Let life lead the dance…….sit back and trust that your source has your best interest at heart….even when things don’t seem to make much sense.

Truth #5
– I am a spiritual being having a human experience. While I’m on this earth, I have the responsibility to serve on purpose and to evolve. These two functions afford one peace, love and happiness…….. which in turn ensures you Live on Purpose!

Truth #6
– Discover your passion and serve in a way that allows you to do what you love. It gives your life meaning even in the hardest of times.

Truth #7
– Don’t take life so seriously….LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH!

Truth #8
– Find ways to actively connect with your source….be it yoga, exercise, meditation, spiritual books, ECT. Seek guidance on a daily basis and stay CONNECTED.

Truth #9
– Rest on inspiration! When a person is inspired…they are in SPIRIT. WHICH MEANS….an idea or purpose has found you. Run with it!

Truth #10
– WALK your TALK. Practice what you preach! Lead by example folks and live your legacy out loud!

I must acknowledge my biggest TRUTHs:

I AM a better man than I was before I came over to this middle eastern country. I have grown spiritually, physically, mentally, professionally, and emotionally.

Furthermore, I have served on purpose. I haven’t seen the direct result of my work…but that’s okay because I’ve invested in the process. I rest easy knowing even in some small…minute way….I have left my footprints in the sand dunes of this desert country.

When I am in the taxi headed to the airport …….I will whisper two words out into the hot and humid air…….”thank you!”

An experience….a journey…never forgotten. :0)

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY! :0)

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STOP fighting!

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STOP fighting…..!

(Written by….my EGO)

As I await my departure back to the USA, I am currently residing in a five-star hotel that my company is paying for. Upon checking in, I was told my reservation was for 14 nights. Now, any other time I’d be thrilled to luxuriate in hotel amenities at the expense of someone else. But as I have said before, I’ve been living and teaching is this foreign country for two years…….I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!

I’m sure you’re wondering what the hold up may be? Your guess is as good as mine. I honestly do not know what is taking so long to cancel my visa and for them to pay me my money. The kids have been out of school for about two weeks and Ramadan is approaching in one day.

I feel like I’m being held here against my will. I made a request to resign in May and it was denied. Denied? I know……right?! Why the early resignation? Well, to be honest I’ve accomplished all of my goals. I’ve always heard horror stories about the exit process, so I wanted to leave on my terms. Needless to say, that didn’t happen.

So here I am…….restless……sitting in a hotel for an indefinite amount of time. I feel so ungrateful writing that last sentence (soul speaking) but my negative emotions are real (ego speaking). I attribute my restlessness to the fact that I start my new job August 1. I also have my new apartment waiting to be moved into by ME. Lastly, I need time with family and friends. I need time to receive the love (in close proximity) before I’m required to step back into the routines of life.

However, it looks like that isn’t going to happen. So here I am attempting to rid myself of this restlessness which is causing me great anxiety. A good friend of mine suggested I stop fighting it. Lol. Damn….he is so right. I haven’t been in control since the moment I arrived here in the Middle East. Hmmmm….?? I guess I’m being challenged ONCE AGAIN to walk my talk.

Wayne Dyer often says, “If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”

(Written by…….my SOUL)

This is where I must exercise HUMILITY.

Okay….yes I’ve been living in this foreign space for two years and upon my arrival back to the USA …I anticipate some challenges with adjusting into western ways. Therefore, time is needed for me to be still, center myself and slowly unravel from this experience. Because……once I’m home….it’s business as usual.

This journey in the Middle East has been an emotional one. The highs have been really high….and the lows have been pretty low. But there’s been a balance which has afforded me an experience of a lifetime. As anxious as I am to go home, there are elements of this experience I will genuinely miss. Therefore, I really need to take the time to immerse myself in these final moments as much as I can.

When’s the next time you will have 14 nights paid for at a five-star hotel by someone else? Exactly! If you don’t shut your ungrateful behind up (EGO) and listen to the whispers. Your SOURCE is giving you the time you need to ensure you’re truly ready to head back into the hustle and bustle of NYC. You’ve lived a pretty simple and quiet life these past two years. Here’s the challenge: How can you bring this peace with you into the next chapter of your life?

Lastly, you’ve managed to make the most out of the past two years. You took an undesirable situation and flipped it! Don’t let these final moments overshadow an experience that has made you an even better man. If anything…..let these final moments be a time of reflection and gratitude. Now…..it’s time to flip your negative thoughts!

Damn it EGO! Get over yourself. Look at what we’ve accomplished….I mean really make an observation. We did it! We completed our commitment and accomplished all that we set out to do. There’s so much to celebrate!

I give you (EGO) permission to chill out dude. Like seriously…..relax and just be in these final moments.

I give you (EGO) permission to stop fighting.

Stop fighting!

Stop…..fighting……!

Stop…..!

……..fighting!

Now……relax…..surrender….breathe……be still.

Infinite patience produces immediate results. ;8)

Consider these crazy thoughts organized! Lol.

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY

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SURRENDER on PURPOSE

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Surrender

What does this word truly mean? Well, I’m living it because I have NO choice. Although at times I feel uncomfortable beyond measure, I recognize that it’s just me EGO attempting to take control of the situation.

The situation? Well, I’m currently living and teaching overseas in the Middle East and my two-year contract is coming to a close. The school year is over, my accommodation has been emptied, and I’m waiting around in a hotel for my money! Lol.

It’s interesting because I have been eagerly waiting for this moment for about the last six months. However, these final days, and weeks have felt longer than the past six months. I’m currently going through the EXIT process. This consists of my company canceling my visa and paying a brotha the money he’s worked for.

Sounds easy enough right? Well, anybody who has lived in the middle eastern part of the world already knows how complex the simplest tasks are made out to be. I’d go into detail but that would mean I’d have to relive the last grueling four weeks of my life and my current emotional state is fragile. Lol.

Which brings me back to surrendering. So I’ve done all that I need to do and at this point I’m just waiting…..and waiting…and more waiting….and waiting. It has literally been torture on every level because I’m so ready to go home. I have a job waiting for me, a new apartment that needs to be moved into, and family/friends I need to receive love from. I need a hug so bad. I need my normal back. I need an emotional vacation. I need my mamas cooking. I need a good shoulder to cry on. Lol.

However…….I know……that……I……need…to…surrender! Otherwise, I’ll go crazy out here in this hot desert. ;0)

It’s funny because I’ll catch myself sitting around the hotel room in deep thought. I’m usually thinking about relocating back to New York City……..thinking about all the stuff I need to do and then suddenly I’ll get EXTREMELY anxious, sad, angry, or irritated. Ugh….it’s the worst. But I’m smart enough to know what’s happening inside my head. Emotions are simply thoughts in motion. Therefore, I’m trying to change the way I look at things….so that the things I look at change (Wayne Dyer). BUT that damn EGO of mine is always trying to take control. Lol.

I’ve had to accept that I have no control over this exit process. On top of that, RAMADAN will take effect on June 28. Folks who are living in this part of the world already know what that means! You got it….EVERYTHING slows down or is shut down. So with Ramadan fast approaching…..I truly have no choice but to surrender and maybe even participate in the fast. I think it’ll do me some good. :0)

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY! Consider these thoughts organized…. :8)

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