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Think BIGGER


Dear Self,

I get that your desire is to locate a second job for supplemental income. However, I need for you to think BIGGER. Maybe you’re not able to find the job you seek because it has yet to be created. Use this time to tap into your passion inorder to create a purposeful yet lucrative second income for yourself. Think bigger! Be bolder! And do NOT let money cloud your judgment. If you settle for less than you deserve, you’ll get even less than what you settled for. Hard was never easy and easy will never be hard. Hiya! So exercise your creative juices and believe that this to shall come. And so it freakin is! This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. 

From,

Self 

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Be Kind to Yourself 

Side eye… hand on the hip…. mouth wide open…..twist of the neck….and lots of attitude! ……….wait for it…. speak MAMA RU!

Isn’t funny how our emotions work? One minute the world feels like it’s going to end and the next minute you feel compelled to serve Beyoncé realness. 


As I bring the microphone to my lips and open up my 👄, I take in a mouthful…. OF AIR! Y’all nasty. Lol. And allow my vocal chords to do the rest. Oh… ya’ll thought I was going to actually starting singing? You’ve got the wrong blog!

I’ve revealed more than I ususally do these past few posts and I must say it’s been liberating. The overwhelming support has reminded me to ensure I’m also being kind, loving and supportive to myself. So interesting how we forget to do such a simple thing. 

I’ve recently started going to a counselor. Yes! I know….it’s still hard for me to admit it but hell I’m going to a damn counselor….and I’m unapologetic. And even better it’s covered by my insiurance. Lol. Anyway…….usually at the end of every session I try to walk away with some mantra that I can put into practice throughout the week. And this week…. you guessed right.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF ANTHONY. 


I don’t know where this journey shall take me. I surrender chile! I mean literally, I have handed over the car keys and fastened my humble ass in the passenger seat of life. SOURCE take the wheel. My GPS is off… hell my cellphone is off. I clasp my hands together, throw my head out of the car window and look up to the sky. I simply close my eyes and say thank you. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY and so it is friends. 

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Fishbowl 


Hey fellow writers! I always wonder how many people actually read these posts? Then I wonder why I do I actually care? I mean my purpose for writing is for me to reflect on my truth my clarity. If my journey inspires others …. great! If not… eh… it is what it is. No shade…. wink. 

Sorry folks, today’s a funky kind of day. Heck I’m just tired and it’s myTRUTHmyCLARITY. Lol. I’ve found myself trying to keep busy in order to avoid the present matters at hand. Sigh…. I’m tired just thinking about it. I keep hearing ‘one day at a time’ but these days are wearing me out! Lol. It’s interesting because I feel this need to ‘keep swimming’ 🏊 but lately I’m feeling more compelled to simply float. I’m doing all this swimming and haven’t a clue which direction I should even be headed in. Round and round I go wondering why I’m chasing my tail. The other day it dawned on me to actually stop swimming and come up for some damn air. Like literally take my head up out of the water! Well damn! Didn’t realize I was actually swimming/exhibiting in a fishbowl of emotions which speaks to why I’ve been suffocating. 

I’m tired friends….and just feel this need to float calmly in the ripples of my emotions. As I lay on my back and look up out of the fishbowl I wonder what’s out there? How do I get myself out of this bowl of emotions. My desire to change goes beyond buying a filter and changing the water. I want more than this bowl…I want to be able to leap out of this bowl and float through the winds of possibility. I want to feel free of all the pain and sorrow. I lay here floating….. feeling to tired to swim. It’s so hard to just be still but know I must if ever I am to restore my fire 🔥 to persevere. I float freely……just being with self and having faith that one day I’ll be restored enough to take the leap of LIFE out of the bowl and into the unknown. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. And so it is….I FLOAT. :0)

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My GREATEST accomplishment while living overseas

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It’s still blows my mind anytime I say, “I’ve been living overseas for two years!” I can’t believe I’m actually living a small thought that danced around in my head back in February 2012. It’s now June 2014 and here I am. As you think, so shall you be.

I have accomplished so much upon my arrival here in Abu Dhabi. However, when ever I’m asked about my greatest accomplishment the first thing that comes to mind is completing the two year commitment. With just two week remaining, I stand tall with my head held high…..embracing my newfound confidence. I can do whatever I put my mind to and this I now know to be my TRUTH and my CLARITY.

Folks, I’m going to be honest with you. Living overseas ain’t all peaches and creme, the HIGHS can be really HIGH and the LOWS can be really LOW. Once the honey moon period passes and it hits you that this foreign space is now your home…..boy oh boy……the stages of culture shock are REAL my followers!

I’m so thankful for my job. The time spent with my students was one of the few moments I felt at home. As an educator, I am fortunate enough to have a platform (classroom) to do what I love which is inspiring youth to achieve their BIG dreams. Furthermore, providing them with the resources needed to experience SUCCESS so that they now know what it LOOKS like, FEELS like, and SOUNDS like. Once a child experiences success…I mean truly lives it in my classroom……..the world of infinite possibilities is in their hands….thereby motivating them to shoot for the stars!

My biggest challenge always began the moment I’d leave my job because I was stepping back into a strict Muslim culture. Initially, I was curious and immersed myself into the Arabic ways but after a year….I just got tired. Lol. Year two was much more challenging than year one. By year two things became clearer (as far as the cultural/religious ways) and they challenged my western ways beyond measure. I thought about going home at least once a day. Not because of any type of negative experience, I just missed my home…I missed my normalcy. I missed the luxury of blending in. My company gives us teachers many opportunities to resign but I had to finish what I started. I was AWARE of the idea that every obstacle posed an opportunity for emotional, physical and spiritual growth. Furthermore, this experience was exactly what I asked for. So often times, I simply invited my EGO to take it’s weak ass out of my head……..I (SPIRIT) was prepared to surrender to the experience and see this journey all the way to the end.

I still don’t know how I’ve managed to get through these past to years which is why I must attribute my greatest accomplishment to my SOURCE. I have discovered a new level of strength, patience, flexibility, tolerance, humility, gratitude, love and peace. I am a new man! More importantly, I have left my footprint within the sand dunes of the Middle East. Although I may never see the results of my hard work while serving here in Abu Dhabi, it is the JOURNEY that has been filled with life changing experiences and opportunities to SERVE…..and for that I am thankful. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY….. Encouraging all of you to step outside of your comfort zone into the direction of the unknown…… Live on purpose!

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Dear EGO

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Dear EGO,

Let me tell you something! You are not in charge of this body. You have never had our best interest at heart and your selfish ways concern me.

Did you really think I wouldn’t notice? Damn right! I found the receipts and brought back all the crap you thought would afford you happiness. You’ve got it all wrong EGO! When will you learn…….we are not this body, we are not what people think of us, we are not the things we accumulate and we are not separate from our SOURCE.

UGH….I really wish you’d stop trying to take control of the steering wheel. You ain’t got no license! Well….maybe a license to kill because following your lead is surely a death sentence.

I know you’re pissed that I decided against drinking that glass of wine the other night but you and I both know that your intentions were all wrong. Hell….it wasn’t even my problem…it was yours! Heck…I was all good. You are the one that always feels this need to take control and when things don’t go your way you get all bent out of shape.

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again….if we are going to live together you need to stay in your lane. Your lane? Uh..yeah! You’re on early retirement. I’m wide awake and aware of your sneaky ways.

Aren’t you tired? You’ve been working full time….and overtime hours the moment I came into this world. So do us both a favor and be STILL. I send nothing but love your way and assure you our SOURCE and I will be just fine. If I must address this issue again…..I’ll MEDITATE you back into STILLNESS. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY….. :0)

Sincerely,

The AWARENESS within (my SOUL)

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Three Lessons I’ve Learned About Life

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As most of you may know, I have been living and teaching overseas in a middle eastern country. I have always believe that a person really begins living their life on purpose the moment they are willing to step outside of their comfort zone. I did just that…..and as my journey comes to a close (2 weeks) I feel compelled to REFLECT on my experiences starting with three lessons I’ve learned about life.

Lesson #1
Discovering my PASSION and SERVING with love has brought me self fulfillment. SELF FULFILLMENT has afforded me an abundance of peace, love and happiness. This feeling is priceless!

Lesson #2
Life has a funny way of showing you exactly who you are in your most vulnerable moments. I am an extension of my SOURCE! When I am aligned with source energy…..ALL things are possible! I am not this body…..I am not this ego…..and I am not these negative thoughts that are designed to keep me from living a life of purpose.

Lesson #3
Life is a JOURNEY….NOT a DESTINATION. I actively practice remaining PRESENT because each moment is filled with all the small things that make up the journey. Take time out of the equation. The past is gone and the future isn’t promised. Live now and be grateful for each and every day you are given to serve with love and grow on purpose.

These three lessons are just a few of the many I am walking away with after living overseas for two years. My TRUTH is that I am a student and the world is my classroom. My CLARITY speaks to the idea that I am a spiritual being having a human experience. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY.

 

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My FELLOW WRITERS….(feedback encouraged)

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SHARE your TRUTH on the meaning of LIFE.

I INVITE you to finish the thoughts below:

LIFE is…………………..??
LIFE is NOT…………..??

Add your feedback in the comment section below…….let’s start a conversation. :0)

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Sneaky EGO

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I often wonder how I can maintain peace of mind on a regular basis. I mean for the most part, while I am studying and/or doing the ‘work’ I am at peace. But I must admit that I have my moments where LIFE happens without notice.
In this current moment, I am not at peace. I recognize that my feelings are my thoughts in motion. I get that! But the reality is I feel… what I feel. And the thoughts that are running around in my head consist of the following; I want to go home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I feel so alone. I’m sick of being in this hot ass desert. I’m very bored with living in this remote region.

Now because I know that these thoughts are negative, they speak to why I feel what I feel. As I think, so shall I be. But you know……I have come to accept that these feelings are valid because of what I am going through right now. Living Overseas is not easy. The highs are really high….and lows can be really low. On top of that, the anticipation of heading home in three weeks is unbearable.

However, when I am in a funk I recognize that I am not aligned with my SOURCE. And what’s interesting is how easily I fall out of alignment without even knowing. It usually comes to light when I start feeling like crap and my first thought is how the heck did I let my mind get into this negative space.

I love the quote I posted above by Lao Tzu because it reminds me to be grateful for what IS. It reminds me to be present because it’s the only moment I’m ever going to have. This moment right now! That is all. Furthermore, I actually okay right now in this moment. This justifies the idea that there really is nothing lacking right now and I need to accept that as my truth and my clarity. Sooooo….I tell myself to STOP IT! Stop entertaining the negative thoughts. ;o)

Wayne Dyer often says, “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” I believe this to be true but I must also acknowledge my human ways….well EGO driven habits. I am a spiritual being trying to master these human thoughts and it is no easy task my friends. However, through gratitude….I shall overcome this funky moment!

-I am thankful for having a home and a job to go back to in the USA.
-I am thankful for the unconditional love and support I receive from my friends and family.
-I am thankful for this time I have to spend WITH myself. It has allowed me to fine tune my relationship with the ONE ABOVE.
-I am thankful for this remote experience in the hot desert because it affords me the opportunity to explore new interest/hobbies.

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Overcoming Anxiety

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It’s June and I go home in three weeks. I have been living and teaching in a foreign country for just about two years. There have been many days where I have pondered this very moment. I miss my family and friends beyond words. I miss normalcy. I miss home. I just want to go home. Sigh….

Although I am grateful for this experience, my patience, flexibility and tolerance is reaching empty. When one exists is a foreign space that goes way beyond their comfort zone they become vulnerable. It’s been a very difficult few weeks because the anticipation of going home is so close…….yet…….so…….far……a.w.a.y!

I have enough knowledge to know that my EGO is taking over. As I Edge God Out (EGO) I feel even more lost. I have been doing my affirmations, and attempting to meditate. However, meditation has always been a challenge. I still catch myself thinking about not thinking. Lol. And then I’m thinking about not thinking about what to think about. It’s a mess! Thank goodness for YouTube! I’ve been doing better with guided meditations. Don’t mind me……..and my human ways.

I’ve been doing my best to manage my anxiety in healthy ways. I’m spending more time in the gym, learning from my spiritual teachers, writing, eating healthy foods, and embracing each present moment. However, I ain’t gonna lie…….sometimes a nice glass of wine takes the edge off! Ok maybe two glasses.

I know this to be true: There’s much to take away from this experience. However, the lessons may not be revealed right now. It may not make any sense, until I’ve walked away from the experience. And that’s okay. :8)

I must stay connected to my source because then all things are possible. My anxiety is real and I must sit with it……be with it…..allow myself to feel it…….surrender to it……and then let it go.

Dear EGO: I give you permission to get off this ride. You do not meet the height requirements. I (awareness) stand tall enough for the both of us. Your services are no longer needed. Oh….and do me a favor…..stay in your lane. This is myTRUHmyCLARITY!

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Humility vs. EGO

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Dear ABU DHABI,

You have exercised my patience, flexibility and tolerance. For that I say thank you.

You have stretched my thinking beyond what I know to be true. For that I say thank you.

You have provided me with an abundance of time with myself. For that I say thank you.

You have brought me closer to my source. For that I say thank you.

You have filled my pockets with a little extra money. For that I say thank you.

You have reminded me of what’s most important in this world. For that I say thank you.

You’ve revealed my ego driven habits. For that I say thank you.

You have eliminated many of the distractions that kept me from evolving. For that I say thank you.

You have provided me with a new global lens in which I now view the world. For that I say thank you.

You have forced me to practice the act of surrendering. For that I say thank you.

You have reminded me of existing inequalities around the world. For that I say thank you.

You have reminded me of how fortunate I am to be an American. For that I say thank you.

Your location has afforded me unforgettable travel experiences. For that I say thank you.

As I lay here almost two years later pondering my return home, I feel pretty dang good. This has been the biggest challenge….well opportunity of my life. For that I say thank you.

I am an even better person than I was upon my arrival July 2012. For that I say thank you.

Sincerely,

A man who has been exercising HUMILITY since his arrival and has OFFICIALLY retired his EGO.

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