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Think BIGGER


Dear Self,

I get that your desire is to locate a second job for supplemental income. However, I need for you to think BIGGER. Maybe you’re not able to find the job you seek because it has yet to be created. Use this time to tap into your passion inorder to create a purposeful yet lucrative second income for yourself. Think bigger! Be bolder! And do NOT let money cloud your judgment. If you settle for less than you deserve, you’ll get even less than what you settled for. Hard was never easy and easy will never be hard. Hiya! So exercise your creative juices and believe that this to shall come. And so it freakin is! This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. 

From,

Self 

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Be Kind to Yourself 

Side eye… hand on the hip…. mouth wide open…..twist of the neck….and lots of attitude! ……….wait for it…. speak MAMA RU!

Isn’t funny how our emotions work? One minute the world feels like it’s going to end and the next minute you feel compelled to serve Beyoncé realness. 


As I bring the microphone to my lips and open up my 👄, I take in a mouthful…. OF AIR! Y’all nasty. Lol. And allow my vocal chords to do the rest. Oh… ya’ll thought I was going to actually starting singing? You’ve got the wrong blog!

I’ve revealed more than I ususally do these past few posts and I must say it’s been liberating. The overwhelming support has reminded me to ensure I’m also being kind, loving and supportive to myself. So interesting how we forget to do such a simple thing. 

I’ve recently started going to a counselor. Yes! I know….it’s still hard for me to admit it but hell I’m going to a damn counselor….and I’m unapologetic. And even better it’s covered by my insiurance. Lol. Anyway…….usually at the end of every session I try to walk away with some mantra that I can put into practice throughout the week. And this week…. you guessed right.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF ANTHONY. 


I don’t know where this journey shall take me. I surrender chile! I mean literally, I have handed over the car keys and fastened my humble ass in the passenger seat of life. SOURCE take the wheel. My GPS is off… hell my cellphone is off. I clasp my hands together, throw my head out of the car window and look up to the sky. I simply close my eyes and say thank you. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY and so it is friends. 

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Fishbowl 


Hey fellow writers! I always wonder how many people actually read these posts? Then I wonder why I do I actually care? I mean my purpose for writing is for me to reflect on my truth my clarity. If my journey inspires others …. great! If not… eh… it is what it is. No shade…. wink. 

Sorry folks, today’s a funky kind of day. Heck I’m just tired and it’s myTRUTHmyCLARITY. Lol. I’ve found myself trying to keep busy in order to avoid the present matters at hand. Sigh…. I’m tired just thinking about it. I keep hearing ‘one day at a time’ but these days are wearing me out! Lol. It’s interesting because I feel this need to ‘keep swimming’ 🏊 but lately I’m feeling more compelled to simply float. I’m doing all this swimming and haven’t a clue which direction I should even be headed in. Round and round I go wondering why I’m chasing my tail. The other day it dawned on me to actually stop swimming and come up for some damn air. Like literally take my head up out of the water! Well damn! Didn’t realize I was actually swimming/exhibiting in a fishbowl of emotions which speaks to why I’ve been suffocating. 

I’m tired friends….and just feel this need to float calmly in the ripples of my emotions. As I lay on my back and look up out of the fishbowl I wonder what’s out there? How do I get myself out of this bowl of emotions. My desire to change goes beyond buying a filter and changing the water. I want more than this bowl…I want to be able to leap out of this bowl and float through the winds of possibility. I want to feel free of all the pain and sorrow. I lay here floating….. feeling to tired to swim. It’s so hard to just be still but know I must if ever I am to restore my fire 🔥 to persevere. I float freely……just being with self and having faith that one day I’ll be restored enough to take the leap of LIFE out of the bowl and into the unknown. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. And so it is….I FLOAT. :0)

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Just Keep Swimming


It’s Day 1 after the physical separation between my partner and I. Last night was tough. I mean I literally felt sick. I helped him move his stuff out and even went as far as bringing him to his new place. I don’t know if that was wise because I broke down in tears as I was about to leave. It’s interesting because the tears weren’t due to the actual separation. They were more about his well being. I just felt bad leaving him there. I mean this guy sacrificed a lot to appease my needs throughout our eight years. I kind of feel responsible for him being all the way out here in the Bay Area. It’s a hard pill to swallow which is why I spit that shit out!


I am NOT responsible for the poor decisions he made. I am not responsible for the infidelity. I am not responsible for why we are separating. Like I said to him, “I never wanted for this to happen.” I was pushed into a corner and forced to evaluate my own well being. I have enough self respect to know what I deserve when it comes to being loved. That pill that I tried to swallow can lay its ass on the ground. Matter of fact, I’ll just go ahead and crush the hell out of it. That grown man made grown decisions. And my story, my happiness, my well being will not rest upon a person who has yet to really discover and love himself. I stand tall, I stand proud, I stand courageous, I stand in my faith knowing…..that if I just keep swimming……Just keep swimming…..Just keep swimming…..Just keep smimming……true peace regarding this matter shall come. In the interim, this is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. And so it is! 

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All Good Things…….

  
Must come to an end? Hell no! Man oh man my time is just about up in Costa Rica. I’m here at Gold’s Gym working off the abundance of rice, beans and plantains. Its become a regular part of my everyday diet since my arrival. 

I’m leaving this beautiful country in a few hours and felt the need to take one final walk. I happened to bump into the gym and took it as a sign. Lol. This moment is magical because I’ve got my tunes, a cool breeze and my favorite elliptical machine. I’m good. It’s the small things mi amigos! 

Day 4 was filled with lots to see and talk about. The problem is I don’t feel like typing it up in an eloquent fashion. Needless to say, I’ll list my most precious memories below.

– Took a bus tour to see Irazu Volcano 

– 13 passengers on the tour / No comment other than I didn’t come here to be surrounded by fellow Americans

– Met a couple from California (Bay Area) which was exciting because I’m planning to move there in a few months 

– My inappropriate attire (gym shorts and a t-shirt sigh…. Let’s just say it was a bit chilly atop the volcano. I wasn’t thinking lol)

– Fog and lots of it 

– Walking along the volcano crater but unable to see it due to the fog

– Rainy day but oddly it added to the beauty of the farms and botanical garden 

– The Costa Rican meal was delicious

– The actual bus ride through the town of Cartago 

– Visiting a Catholic Church 

– Visiting the ‘Ruins’

– Dinner with Keitsa 

– Hotel Kekoldi 

– Shopping at the supermarket 

As this vacation comes to an end, I challenge myself to find joy in the daily routine of life. Don’t slip back into the coma of habitual behavior. Actually, find a way to deter from the routine as often as possible. Be present and most importantly live daringly! 

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SOURCE is REAL

  
How can SOURCE not be real? There’s definitely something out there that is greater than you and me put together. :0)
“Costa Rica February 17, 2016”

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MY LEGACY 

  
As I walk CONFIDENTLY into the direction of the unknown, I embody a KNOWING that everything is going to be just fine. I am GUIDED by my SOURCE to SERVE and GROW on and with PURPOSE. 

My LEGACY is one that speaks to living your BEST life while also exercising your PASSION through SERVICE. LIVE beyond your COMFORT ZONE and be OPEN to receiving the many OPPORTUNITIES that move into your life. MOVE with LIFE because it truly is a DANCE. Allow it to GUIDE you and remember to SMILE along the way. I am YOU. You are ME. We are ONE. One with SOURCE. 

  
This is my TRUTH my CLARITY my LEGACY :0)

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The Surreal Life

  

Yesterday was filled with surreal experiences. It reminded me of the moments you watch in movies and wish you could experience for yourself. Breathtaking moments filled the day. I don’t even know where to begin. I’ll just make a list of these precious moments. 

– Blogging and swimming in the hotel pool area 

– Riding the bus with the locals 

– Hanging out at the Playa de Manuel Antonio

– Swimming in El Pacifico 

– Playing in the waves 

– ‘Dranking’ my margarita on the beach

– Writing my name in the sand 

– ATV riding through water channels, the jungle, dirt roads, and countryside for about a good hour and a half (magnificent views)

– Home cooked Costa Rican meal

– Seafood meal at El Gran Escape

– Ice cream shop 

– Relaxing at the hotel 

– Hangong out with the beau throughout it all 

My time in Quepos and Manuel Antonio has been well spent. It truly has felt like a vacation. I need daily life to feel like this. Maybe it’s time to go back overseas to live and work. Hmmm?? :0) 

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NEW Year FRESH Start!

As I move into 2015, I leave behind old negative thoughts and welcome positive healthy thoughts.

I part ways with habitual behaviors that disconnect me from my source and walk confidently into the direction of my dreams.

I invite full potential into my present reality forcing stagnant energy out of my life.

As I work to embrace uncomfortable experiences, I recognize that this is the place where LIVING ON PURPOSE resides.

The following truths about EGO will afford me a life of evolution and service thereby enveloping me in peace, love and happiness:
-You are NOT this body
-Your are NOT the THINGS you acquire
-You are NOT your titles
-You are NOT separate from GOD
-You ARE a spiritual being having a human experience

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY :0)

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My GREATEST Challenge

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I’ve been faced with a number of challenges since I’ve returned back to the United Staes of America. However, my GREATEST challenge has been staying connected with my SOURCE and truly being PRESENT in the moment. WALKING my TALK was so much easier to do overseas in the eastern part of the world. Work/Life balance was afforded to me by default because it was so engrained in the culture. Heck, my work day was over by 1:30pm. Furthermore, living in the United Arab Emirates made abundantly clear how committed Muslims are to praying five times each day and staying connected to ALLAH. Therefore, I would often be reminded to stay connected to my SOURCE. I had lots of time, silence, and stillness to ensure my EGO remained in check. Now that I’m back in the hustle and bustle of the western world, it’s so easy to lose sight of the things that truly matter. My EGO has had a ball since our return to the USA. And now it’s not only time to reclaim my AWARENESS but it’s also time to get back to Living on Purpose. This…….my friends…….is….My Truth My Clarity.

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