(Written by….my EGO)
As I await my departure back to the USA, I am currently residing in a five-star hotel that my company is paying for. Upon checking in, I was told my reservation was for 14 nights. Now, any other time I’d be thrilled to luxuriate in hotel amenities at the expense of someone else. But as I have said before, I’ve been living and teaching is this foreign country for two years…….I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!
I’m sure you’re wondering what the hold up may be? Your guess is as good as mine. I honestly do not know what is taking so long to cancel my visa and for them to pay me my money. The kids have been out of school for about two weeks and Ramadan is approaching in one day.
I feel like I’m being held here against my will. I made a request to resign in May and it was denied. Denied? I know……right?! Why the early resignation? Well, to be honest I’ve accomplished all of my goals. I’ve always heard horror stories about the exit process, so I wanted to leave on my terms. Needless to say, that didn’t happen.
So here I am…….restless……sitting in a hotel for an indefinite amount of time. I feel so ungrateful writing that last sentence (soul speaking) but my negative emotions are real (ego speaking). I attribute my restlessness to the fact that I start my new job August 1. I also have my new apartment waiting to be moved into by ME. Lastly, I need time with family and friends. I need time to receive the love (in close proximity) before I’m required to step back into the routines of life.
However, it looks like that isn’t going to happen. So here I am attempting to rid myself of this restlessness which is causing me great anxiety. A good friend of mine suggested I stop fighting it. Lol. Damn….he is so right. I haven’t been in control since the moment I arrived here in the Middle East. Hmmmm….?? I guess I’m being challenged ONCE AGAIN to walk my talk.
Wayne Dyer often says, “If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”
(Written by…….my SOUL)
This is where I must exercise HUMILITY.
Okay….yes I’ve been living in this foreign space for two years and upon my arrival back to the USA …I anticipate some challenges with adjusting into western ways. Therefore, time is needed for me to be still, center myself and slowly unravel from this experience. Because……once I’m home….it’s business as usual.
This journey in the Middle East has been an emotional one. The highs have been really high….and the lows have been pretty low. But there’s been a balance which has afforded me an experience of a lifetime. As anxious as I am to go home, there are elements of this experience I will genuinely miss. Therefore, I really need to take the time to immerse myself in these final moments as much as I can.
When’s the next time you will have 14 nights paid for at a five-star hotel by someone else? Exactly! If you don’t shut your ungrateful behind up (EGO) and listen to the whispers. Your SOURCE is giving you the time you need to ensure you’re truly ready to head back into the hustle and bustle of NYC. You’ve lived a pretty simple and quiet life these past two years. Here’s the challenge: How can you bring this peace with you into the next chapter of your life?
Lastly, you’ve managed to make the most out of the past two years. You took an undesirable situation and flipped it! Don’t let these final moments overshadow an experience that has made you an even better man. If anything…..let these final moments be a time of reflection and gratitude. Now…..it’s time to flip your negative thoughts!
Damn it EGO! Get over yourself. Look at what we’ve accomplished….I mean really make an observation. We did it! We completed our commitment and accomplished all that we set out to do. There’s so much to celebrate!
I give you (EGO) permission to chill out dude. Like seriously…..relax and just be in these final moments.
I give you (EGO) permission to stop fighting.
Infinite patience produces immediate results. ;8)
Consider these crazy thoughts organized! Lol.
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