As I sit here and think about the wonderful time I had with my mother, I try to control my emotions. Quite frankly, I am feeling sad. Sad because obviously I will miss my mom……and once again I will feel the loneliness that continuously shows itself at the most random moments out here in this foreign world. I have met wonderful people but they don’t know me and I don’t know them. That type of relationship takes time and energy and effort and you get the picture. Lol.
However, I am smart enough to know I am not alone. I trust in an energy, spirit, being, godliness that WILL continuously be with me and guide me with purpose. Because I now live my life asking, “How may I serve?” I know that I will be okay. I continuously aim to be an instrument of thy peace which affords me the unique ability to surrender! It affords me the ability to be present in the moment. I recognize that I embody the love and support of a higher power greater than myself. I am loved by my family and wonderful friends. I am them, they are me. I am it, it is me. We are one. I am smart enough to know that I truly am not alone. More importantly, I recognize that I am here for a purpose greater than myself. I BELIEVE this to be true.
I recognize that my emotions are simply a reaction to my thinking. I am not my negative thoughts. I am not my negative thinking. My EGO continuously wants, desires, and will do any and everything to steer me off course (as its done in the past). :0/
I notice it stands before me with a slight smirk on its face. In this moment, I realize we are not playing for the same team. As I keep my distance I notice my EGO holding something in both of its hands. I can’t really make it out but I believe in my EGOs right hand is a waving flag with a picture of my friends and family printed on both sides. I squint a little harder and notice in my EGOs left hand is a plane ticket home. Lol. My EGO simply wont give up! Lol
What my EGO doesn’t realize is that I know I am the AWARENESS that recognizes my EGO at work. Because I now know better, I am able to see things as they truly are! Call it faith, call it a knowing, heck call it GODs glasses. I close my ego-tainted eyes, search within, ask for guidance and then open my eyes.
Wow! I can see now. It’s so much clearer. Yes, it is my friends and family printed on that flag but as I look closer I notice everybody who loves me standing proudly with huge smiles on their faces. I can’t help but notice they are all wearing green shirts that read, “Do you!” in white letters. Ahhh yes, they are all cheering for me, giving me two thumbs up. Oh and there’s my mom right up front looking so proud!
Oh and wait! That’s no plane ticket. There in my EGOs left hand lies an envelope. I walk right up to my ego, reach for the envelope, open it up and inside of it is a blue post it. There are three puffy clouds that have been draw onto the post it. Above the clouds there’s a message that reads, “The sky is not the limit, keep going”. I place the post it inside the envelope, and rest it on my heart. I begin drifting away from my EGO. My negative thoughts are retracting and I feel at peace. I feel contentment. I feel a HUGE sense of gratitude. I recognize that this moment in Abu Dhabi will be over before you know it. “Anthony embrace the experience, your work here isn’t finished yet!” Let the journey continue!
So RAW, yet so real. Mom, thank you for visiting me in this foreign country. It was so needed!
Consider these thoughts organized! :0)
As I think, so shall I be.