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Think BIGGER


Dear Self,

I get that your desire is to locate a second job for supplemental income. However, I need for you to think BIGGER. Maybe you’re not able to find the job you seek because it has yet to be created. Use this time to tap into your passion inorder to create a purposeful yet lucrative second income for yourself. Think bigger! Be bolder! And do NOT let money cloud your judgment. If you settle for less than you deserve, you’ll get even less than what you settled for. Hard was never easy and easy will never be hard. Hiya! So exercise your creative juices and believe that this to shall come. And so it freakin is! This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. 

From,

Self 

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Life Goals (BIG & small)

  • Travel and serve in Africa 
  • Fall in love ❤️ 
  • Become a Teacher 👨‍🏫 
  • Become an Assistant Principal 
  • Start my own school (Principal)
  • Live in New York 
  • Live in Atlanta 
  • INSPIRE youth in underserved communities 
  • Maintain a healthy gym routine 
  • Make friends around the world 
  • Become a Father 
  • Be PRESENT 
  • Continuously operate beyond my comfort zone 
  • Appreciate my family 
  • Make six figures times ten. Networth of over 10 million. I’ll take more more! 
  • Stay true to my passion and purpose 
  • Keep moving 
  • Turn off the television 
  • Keep up with my cycling 
  • Discover relief for my feet 
  • Be my own boss 
  • Start my own business 
  • Write a book 
  • Become a motivation speaker 
  • Train teachers 
  • PHD in something 
  • Be open to love again 
  • Not become a statistic within the black gay community 
  • Leave a legacy behind that rings in the ears of many 
  • No drinking at home alone 
  • Read 12 books a year minimum 
  • Walk, skip, jump to the beat of my own dream and do it unapologetically 
  • Own a fun car: something with a drop top!
  • Moped or motorcycle on the side
  • Establish a savings account that affords me financial freedom. 500,000 plus! Times 10!
  • But my mother a house of her own
  • Create careers for others 
  • Explore and participate in New and different things
  • Attend a motivational conference 
  • Travel to all seven continents 
  • Wake up and say THANK YOU
  • Just keep swimming 
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Be Kind to Yourself 

Side eye… hand on the hip…. mouth wide open…..twist of the neck….and lots of attitude! ……….wait for it…. speak MAMA RU!

Isn’t funny how our emotions work? One minute the world feels like it’s going to end and the next minute you feel compelled to serve Beyoncé realness. 


As I bring the microphone to my lips and open up my 👄, I take in a mouthful…. OF AIR! Y’all nasty. Lol. And allow my vocal chords to do the rest. Oh… ya’ll thought I was going to actually starting singing? You’ve got the wrong blog!

I’ve revealed more than I ususally do these past few posts and I must say it’s been liberating. The overwhelming support has reminded me to ensure I’m also being kind, loving and supportive to myself. So interesting how we forget to do such a simple thing. 

I’ve recently started going to a counselor. Yes! I know….it’s still hard for me to admit it but hell I’m going to a damn counselor….and I’m unapologetic. And even better it’s covered by my insiurance. Lol. Anyway…….usually at the end of every session I try to walk away with some mantra that I can put into practice throughout the week. And this week…. you guessed right.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF ANTHONY. 


I don’t know where this journey shall take me. I surrender chile! I mean literally, I have handed over the car keys and fastened my humble ass in the passenger seat of life. SOURCE take the wheel. My GPS is off… hell my cellphone is off. I clasp my hands together, throw my head out of the car window and look up to the sky. I simply close my eyes and say thank you. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY and so it is friends. 

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Fishbowl 


Hey fellow writers! I always wonder how many people actually read these posts? Then I wonder why I do I actually care? I mean my purpose for writing is for me to reflect on my truth my clarity. If my journey inspires others …. great! If not… eh… it is what it is. No shade…. wink. 

Sorry folks, today’s a funky kind of day. Heck I’m just tired and it’s myTRUTHmyCLARITY. Lol. I’ve found myself trying to keep busy in order to avoid the present matters at hand. Sigh…. I’m tired just thinking about it. I keep hearing ‘one day at a time’ but these days are wearing me out! Lol. It’s interesting because I feel this need to ‘keep swimming’ 🏊 but lately I’m feeling more compelled to simply float. I’m doing all this swimming and haven’t a clue which direction I should even be headed in. Round and round I go wondering why I’m chasing my tail. The other day it dawned on me to actually stop swimming and come up for some damn air. Like literally take my head up out of the water! Well damn! Didn’t realize I was actually swimming/exhibiting in a fishbowl of emotions which speaks to why I’ve been suffocating. 

I’m tired friends….and just feel this need to float calmly in the ripples of my emotions. As I lay on my back and look up out of the fishbowl I wonder what’s out there? How do I get myself out of this bowl of emotions. My desire to change goes beyond buying a filter and changing the water. I want more than this bowl…I want to be able to leap out of this bowl and float through the winds of possibility. I want to feel free of all the pain and sorrow. I lay here floating….. feeling to tired to swim. It’s so hard to just be still but know I must if ever I am to restore my fire 🔥 to persevere. I float freely……just being with self and having faith that one day I’ll be restored enough to take the leap of LIFE out of the bowl and into the unknown. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY. And so it is….I FLOAT. :0)

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Home Sweet Home….and so it is!

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I’m in disbelief! Because home is five hours away and it feels so damn good. I completed my two year contract and man oh man……I prevailed. I don’t need to say much because my actions alone speak loudly. If you didn’t catch on….let me spell it out for you,

“Step outside of your comfort zone and let life lead the way. Furthermore, walk confidently into the direction of the unknown and serve. A person who serves is a person who is truly living life on purpose.”

I have completed my two year contract while living and teaching in a foreign country. Hell a Muslim country….located in the Middle East…..and I’m here to let you all know that I have received an abundance of blessings that have made me even better than I was upon my arrival on August 10, 2012.

The three BIGGEST EYE OPENERS I will take with me back to New York City are:

1. Serve….serve….serve! Are you seeking your purpose in life? Well? Serve…serve…serve… And it shall find you.

2. A person who is lonely no longer enjoys the company of him or herself. Get to know you……because if you don’t love yourself….then how in the hell you gonna love anybody else. And A….LONE….NESS….affords you the time needed to connect with your SOURCE. So get quiet and get alone.

3. Step outside of your comfort zone and be willing to grow. Growth affords you the opportunity to move with life. And life is always moving/changing…..be fluid…..and move with your purpose. The moment you step outside of your comfort zone is the moment you are truly LIVING on PURPOSE.

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY.

And so the next chapter begins……NYC HERE I COME! Home sweet home….and so it is!

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SURRENDER on PURPOSE

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Surrender

What does this word truly mean? Well, I’m living it because I have NO choice. Although at times I feel uncomfortable beyond measure, I recognize that it’s just me EGO attempting to take control of the situation.

The situation? Well, I’m currently living and teaching overseas in the Middle East and my two-year contract is coming to a close. The school year is over, my accommodation has been emptied, and I’m waiting around in a hotel for my money! Lol.

It’s interesting because I have been eagerly waiting for this moment for about the last six months. However, these final days, and weeks have felt longer than the past six months. I’m currently going through the EXIT process. This consists of my company canceling my visa and paying a brotha the money he’s worked for.

Sounds easy enough right? Well, anybody who has lived in the middle eastern part of the world already knows how complex the simplest tasks are made out to be. I’d go into detail but that would mean I’d have to relive the last grueling four weeks of my life and my current emotional state is fragile. Lol.

Which brings me back to surrendering. So I’ve done all that I need to do and at this point I’m just waiting…..and waiting…and more waiting….and waiting. It has literally been torture on every level because I’m so ready to go home. I have a job waiting for me, a new apartment that needs to be moved into, and family/friends I need to receive love from. I need a hug so bad. I need my normal back. I need an emotional vacation. I need my mamas cooking. I need a good shoulder to cry on. Lol.

However…….I know……that……I……need…to…surrender! Otherwise, I’ll go crazy out here in this hot desert. ;0)

It’s funny because I’ll catch myself sitting around the hotel room in deep thought. I’m usually thinking about relocating back to New York City……..thinking about all the stuff I need to do and then suddenly I’ll get EXTREMELY anxious, sad, angry, or irritated. Ugh….it’s the worst. But I’m smart enough to know what’s happening inside my head. Emotions are simply thoughts in motion. Therefore, I’m trying to change the way I look at things….so that the things I look at change (Wayne Dyer). BUT that damn EGO of mine is always trying to take control. Lol.

I’ve had to accept that I have no control over this exit process. On top of that, RAMADAN will take effect on June 28. Folks who are living in this part of the world already know what that means! You got it….EVERYTHING slows down or is shut down. So with Ramadan fast approaching…..I truly have no choice but to surrender and maybe even participate in the fast. I think it’ll do me some good. :0)

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY! Consider these thoughts organized…. :8)

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Dear EGO

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Dear EGO,

Let me tell you something! You are not in charge of this body. You have never had our best interest at heart and your selfish ways concern me.

Did you really think I wouldn’t notice? Damn right! I found the receipts and brought back all the crap you thought would afford you happiness. You’ve got it all wrong EGO! When will you learn…….we are not this body, we are not what people think of us, we are not the things we accumulate and we are not separate from our SOURCE.

UGH….I really wish you’d stop trying to take control of the steering wheel. You ain’t got no license! Well….maybe a license to kill because following your lead is surely a death sentence.

I know you’re pissed that I decided against drinking that glass of wine the other night but you and I both know that your intentions were all wrong. Hell….it wasn’t even my problem…it was yours! Heck…I was all good. You are the one that always feels this need to take control and when things don’t go your way you get all bent out of shape.

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again….if we are going to live together you need to stay in your lane. Your lane? Uh..yeah! You’re on early retirement. I’m wide awake and aware of your sneaky ways.

Aren’t you tired? You’ve been working full time….and overtime hours the moment I came into this world. So do us both a favor and be STILL. I send nothing but love your way and assure you our SOURCE and I will be just fine. If I must address this issue again…..I’ll MEDITATE you back into STILLNESS. This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY….. :0)

Sincerely,

The AWARENESS within (my SOUL)

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Feelings come and go…….. :0)

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People often think, if I allow myself to feel this, I’ll never stop.

The truth is, that true authentic feelings move through us in waves, and most don’t last more than a few minutes.

If you’re experiencing feelings that persist for hours or days, there is likely a different feeling underneath that is needing to be felt and expressed.

This is myTRUTHmyCLARITY!

Consider these thoughts organized. :8)

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My FELLOW WRITERS….(feedback encouraged)

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SHARE your TRUTH on the meaning of LIFE.

I INVITE you to finish the thoughts below:

LIFE is…………………..??
LIFE is NOT…………..??

Add your feedback in the comment section below…….let’s start a conversation. :0)

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Sneaky EGO

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I often wonder how I can maintain peace of mind on a regular basis. I mean for the most part, while I am studying and/or doing the ‘work’ I am at peace. But I must admit that I have my moments where LIFE happens without notice.
In this current moment, I am not at peace. I recognize that my feelings are my thoughts in motion. I get that! But the reality is I feel… what I feel. And the thoughts that are running around in my head consist of the following; I want to go home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I feel so alone. I’m sick of being in this hot ass desert. I’m very bored with living in this remote region.

Now because I know that these thoughts are negative, they speak to why I feel what I feel. As I think, so shall I be. But you know……I have come to accept that these feelings are valid because of what I am going through right now. Living Overseas is not easy. The highs are really high….and lows can be really low. On top of that, the anticipation of heading home in three weeks is unbearable.

However, when I am in a funk I recognize that I am not aligned with my SOURCE. And what’s interesting is how easily I fall out of alignment without even knowing. It usually comes to light when I start feeling like crap and my first thought is how the heck did I let my mind get into this negative space.

I love the quote I posted above by Lao Tzu because it reminds me to be grateful for what IS. It reminds me to be present because it’s the only moment I’m ever going to have. This moment right now! That is all. Furthermore, I actually okay right now in this moment. This justifies the idea that there really is nothing lacking right now and I need to accept that as my truth and my clarity. Sooooo….I tell myself to STOP IT! Stop entertaining the negative thoughts. ;o)

Wayne Dyer often says, “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” I believe this to be true but I must also acknowledge my human ways….well EGO driven habits. I am a spiritual being trying to master these human thoughts and it is no easy task my friends. However, through gratitude….I shall overcome this funky moment!

-I am thankful for having a home and a job to go back to in the USA.
-I am thankful for the unconditional love and support I receive from my friends and family.
-I am thankful for this time I have to spend WITH myself. It has allowed me to fine tune my relationship with the ONE ABOVE.
-I am thankful for this remote experience in the hot desert because it affords me the opportunity to explore new interest/hobbies.

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